I will start my news with something fun! In November me and Tink exchanged Christmas gifts - Yip, I know... early... shame on us! But we have both been having loads of fun! I got her Assassins Creed for Xbox - and she got me Band Hero for Xbox! We have been playing a fair amount of Guitar Hero this month too which was nice - helped keep me sane.

I have had a really bad/hard month medically and emotionally. My doctor and I are not seeing eye to eye on some issues and it is making my depression and stress levels really high. So much so that I am not sleeping for days on end and then rebounding and sleeping for 23 hours without getting up to eat or drink etc. I am seeing my original specialist to see if once again he can try to talk to my doctor and make him stop "pouring salt in open wounds" so to speak. I am frustrated that I will just get to a point where life isn't so bad I wish I had died in '08 - Some semblance of normalcy and happiness and then my idiot GP will be a dumb fuck and throw me into the pit of despair/depression/stress.

Needless to say I have been happy - and miserable all in the same month... I hope soon to balance out again once my idiot GP gets off his high horse.

I don't really have a site update for this month to speak of. I did some painting in October/November for Christmas. I made home made Christmas cards for a few very close friends, I think they turned out pretty cute. I forgot to snap pictures of them all before mailing them off which sucks as they ALL looked quite different but Tink has been so kind as to scan hers so I can at least post that one up to show you all :) You can see it here. I would like to paint more but then I don't know what to do with the finished product! LOL I haven't really got many people to give them to and keeping them all seems silly as they stack up! I haven't got the heart to send them to recycling either! What do all you artists do with your paintings?!

I hope you all have an amazing December - however you celebrate or even if you don't celebrate. I hope you feel peace and happiness and love. No one should feel despair this time of the year. Keep your chins up my friends... and remember those who are no longer with us. Think fondly of them with love. Tell those who are still with you that you love and appreciate them.

Happy Holidays ( and yes, I say that rather than Merry Christmas because they are HOLIDAYS! (thanksgiving, Christmas, hanukkah, new years, etc etc etc they all fall in the same time chunk. If this offends you? fuck off... get a life... you are not the ONLY religion out there. Take it for what it is, a wish of happiness for you and yours during YOUR chosen religious events.)

Last but not least please give blood you can save so many lives and it doesn't hurt or take much time. You can find a blood bank near you through the links below.

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xxoxoxooxxoxox
Jayde

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